ALEXITHYMIC ECHOES

"The loudest conversations are often the ones we have with ourselves." The Silence We Choose Sometimes, when you're going through a lot, it all becomes too much. You start isolating yourself, not because you hate people, but because you know there's an emotional storm running inside you. And you're scared that one day it'll spill out in front of someone who doesn't know how to hold it. Or worse... someone who'll use it against you. Sometimes, staying away from people isn't about pushing them away.  It's about protecting the version of yourself that's already been hurt enough. Learning to Survive Yourself For some people, the first heartbreak doesn't come from love.  It comes from their own people.  At first, you cry.  You wait for someone to notice.  Someone to ask if you're okay.  Someone to stay.  But after a while, you stop waiting.  Not because you don't need people anymore.  Because no one came.  So you slowly learn how to ...

There comes a point where you don't stop talking because you have nothing to say. You stop because explaining yourself becomes exhausting . Maybe that's what growing up has looked like for me recently. It's been a while since my last blog, but the only thing that has changed is my perspective . My life isn't magically different, but my POV has widened. I've realized things I probably wouldn't have understood a year ago. Lately, I've been thinking about one simple wish. I wish I had someone to share everything with. At some point, all you want is to pour your heart out. To say every single thing that's been sitting inside your head. But somehow, people turn your emotions into something you're supposed to defend. You're " too sensitive." "Too weak." "Just looking for sympathy. " If it's your parents, they may tell you to be stronger . If it's your friends, they'll encourage you because they g...

No matter how deeply it aches, I’ll keep it to myself. They say love is light, but they forget to mention how heavy it feels when you’re carrying someone else’s wounds on your shoulders. Love isn’t always soft. Sometimes it’s staying up when you’re drained, worrying when you should be resting, and carrying someone else’s weight as if it were your own. You don’t even think twice because you care. And that’s the thing: the same love that warms you can also wear you out. When life feels heavy, how do you choose which burden to carry? W e all can relate to this question, don't we?? Yeah, somewhere we all do. Because if you are a student preparing for university, a university student, a corporate worker, a business owner, an SEO or you're someone who is just tryin' to figure things out . It's a CHAOS, isn't it!  You might feel that you're just getting deeply dissolved into the problems, the moment you try to solve it. If you balance your work life, your ...

WHAT THE WORLD DOESN'T SEE... Becoming a doctor isn’t a moment. It's not when they call your name in a " white coat ". It begins much earlier - when you're just a name on an admit card , in a quite room full of dreams. Before the world sees you as a "doctor", you become someone else first - a NEET aspirant . The kind who wakes up before the world does. The kind who measures the progress not by applause, but by how much they conquered in silence . But the truth is victories don't come in constant upward graph. It's not just about NEET aspirant,  it's every aspirant out there, preparing for any competitive exam , hyped or obscure. It's a complete rollercoaster of scores, mood swings, and self doubt with every test you take. No one sees the agony you carry when people casually compare you to others , without ever glancing at differences in their environment, their mentorship , or their moral support . No one claps when you choose dis...